A Godly Father

I woke up this morning unable to sleep and as I lay in bed with my own thoughts, they are about my dad. I miss him everyday and as I walk this cancer journey, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t long for his big strong hug. Sunday is Father’s day and…

When I am weak, He is strong.

This week has been hard…my spirit has been weak. I am tired and don’t want to do this anymore. We can all handle change and feeling poorly for a certain amount of time…and then we hit a brick wall. I hit that brick wall. I want my energy back. I want my hair back. I…

Why?

Oh, the questions. Not the questions that are easy to answer, but those that we don’t know the answers to…how frustrating they are. Why did this one bee sting take my dad’s life? He was such a good man, why him? Why did my sister Sara have to endure so much pain? She was so…

Peace.

After losing dad suddenly from a bee sting in July of 2010, and then losing Sara in September of 2011 from a disease called Ankylosing Spondylitis, I prayed so hard to just feel peace. My head knew that they were happy and in their awesome new home in heaven, but my heart hurt so badly and…

Believe

Faith is believing without seeing…it’s also believing without feeling. “Even when it doesn’t feel good. Even when it hurts and is lonely and feels unfair and requires me to grieve a life I was never  promised. They say that faith is believing without seeing. I think it’s also believing without feeling. It’s believing in those…

Faith, Hope and Love

The greatest of these is Love. The forever gifts of the spirit. This verse has been running through my head a lot since my last Chemo treatment, because I have felt so much love from so many of my brothers and sisters in Christ…each of you! The true love that I felt has helped grow…

Brave

Brave: Endure or face pain without showing fear. Yesterday was the fourth of the first set of a series of two types of chemo treatments that I had to go through…and I didn’t feel brave. I was afraid. Tears flowed as they began the IV to inject me once again with a chemo drug that…