Mark 14:36 says: “Abba, Father, everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.”
I have been spending a lot of time thinking about the phrase “wholehearted surrender,” lately…
I get overwhelmed when there are so many priorities and responsibilities facing me each day. Some of the responsibilities are even more overwhelming when the decisions I make affect others as well. My mind can start spiraling out of control when I allow these thoughts to take over instead of surrendering to the one who knows all, can see all and controls all.
I often think I am surrendering aspects of my life, but that is the problem. I only give Him some control. What God ultimately wants from me is wholehearted surrender!
“By now you’ve probably realized you have a distinct choice to make: just let life happen, which is tantamount to serving God your leftovers, or actively run toward Christ. Do you understand that it’s impossible to please God in any way other than wholehearted surrender?” ~Francis Chan
And then she lost everything.
Her disease gradually took away her physical choices to the point where she was in constant physical pain, often sick, walking with a walker and completely homebound. Not only was she confined to her home, but she also couldn’t even open a window.
I also learned this myself when I faced divorce as a young mother and then again in 2017 when I faced breast cancer. My first reaction to these difficult situations was, “why me?” I want to serve Him and yet felt as though there were constant roadblocks along the way.
It was Sara who taught me that when we ask why it leaves me feeling like a victim. Instead of why I need to ask what and how. What can I do? How can I serve? It takes me from being a victim and only thinking about myself, to a place of wholehearted surrender. Serving Him.
What I have learned is that through each of these circumstances, God has taught me more than I would’ve learned without them. He continues to teach me that this life is not about me, my wants and desires. This life is about Him. It’s about what He can do through me.
When I choose to wholeheartedly surrender my life to Him, instead of just giving Him some control, I no longer feel overwhelmed with all the different priorities and choices I have to make.
I choose to trust Him and let Him be in control.
It is not what I will, but what is His will.
Peace and love, friends!