Head and Heart

Do you ever have a conversation with yourself or probably more accurately, an argument with yourself?

Since I have battled breast cancer and lost Dad and Sara I have daily (feels like constant) conversations with myself and sometimes when I am really frustrated with myself, it turns into an argument between my head and my heart.

When something emotional and difficult happens, my natural reaction is to…get busy. After I lost my dad, I got busy caring for mom and Sara. Making sure they were ok and that their needs were being met. I got busy doing…

After I lost my sister Sara, I got busy going through all her blog posts and worked at figuring out how to continue her legacy of Choose Joy. How to continue being the hands and feet of God by sharing her story. I got busy doing…

When I was diagnosed with breast cancer and began the journey with Chemotherapy and radiation, I decided to keep busy with work (as much as I could), and I focused on making sure those that I loved didn’t worry. I worked on making sure that even though they saw their wife, mom, sister, friend changing in appearance, that I was ok. I got busy doing…

I mentioned in my last post that I have been blessed with the opportunity to be a voice for Women of Faith. I was asked to assist with some inspirational / teaching videos for the month of February on Loving Well. As I was doing those videos and coming up with the topics, I realized that I was talking from my head instead of my heart.

I was teaching, instead of inspiring. I was instructing rather than living. When I could keep all of those things in my head, I didn’t have to feel in my heart. I was busy being a human doing instead of a human being.

So, the question is, how do I get my head and heart aligned?

I don’t know that I completely know the answer to that question, but I believe the first step is to acknowledge Him. Pray to Him. Trust in Him. Surrender to Him.

“He knows my past, present, and future. He is surprised by nothing. He is with me, never leaves me even when I feel alone, and holds me up even when I think I am standing on my own two feet. He is good. All the time. And I am going to praise Him through it.” – Sara Gitz Frankl

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Jesus Christ.” – Philippians 4:6-7

What I do know is that I am very thankful. Thankful for all Jesus endured in order for us to experience eternal life.  Now that I have experienced the loss of ones that I have loved so deeply, that thankfulness has even become even more meaningful. Knowing that dad and Sara are together with the risen Lord until we meet again, helps both my head and my heart!

I am thankful for the opportunity to continue to walk the journey that He has laid out before me…both the hard and the easy…because it is through each of these experiences that I get to grow in my relationship with Him…and I am blessed to share His wisdom with all of you!

I am choosing…peace, joy, kindness, faithfulness…I am choosing to trust GOD!

Have a blessed week!


He knows my past present and future

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