I’ve been thinking about the above words from Sara… “When everything is taken away, and nothing is left but the core of who you are, that’s when you have to make a choice to be washed free of everything but the comfort of God who would never let me fall.”
I have finished up seven of twelve weekly chemo treatments. The weekly doses have taken a toll on my system and my counts are too low. Therefore, in order to continue treatment each week, I will receive daily neupogen shots for four days after each chemo treatment.
Neupogen is a bone marrow stimulant that helps my body make white blood cells after receiving the chemo. The side effects have included muscle, bone and joint pain, along with added tiredness and nausea.
It has been hard to deal with my body taking a step back and being able to do less and less of what I want to to do…any yet, I know there is an end in sight. That’s when the quote from Sara brought on even a stronger meaning to me.
Because of the gift of free will, we all have choices to make…from the time we get up in the morning until our head hits the pillow at night. Some of the choices are big and some are small, but they are all choices and those choices determine our stories.
Sara’s choice was to be washed free of everything but the comfort of God, who would never let her fall. Sara was able to make this choice with a life of pain that wasn’t going to end…it was her life forever. She chose joy instead of sadness. She chose trust instead of fear. She chose community instead of isolation.
Sara’s story… Sara made and continues to make a difference in the lives of many. Sara was a true disciple of God. Sara has showed us through her words and her life how make our life more outward focused than inward. Sara showed us how to love well and follow Him. Sara showed us the ability to choose joy, even when life hurts.
The journey of pain and sadness that we face forces us to make a choice…I choose to be washed free of everything but the comfort of God who will never let me fall. It also doesn’t have to take a journey of pain and sadness to make this choice.
How about you? What do you choose? What do you want your story to be?